It took very little time for me to think of what to name this blog. It will be my record of my weight loss. I've experienced loss of many types in my life, and I've had to grieve for all of them. However, I will never grieve for the loss of some pounds. Hence: "A Loss For Which I'll Never Grieve".
I'm 26 years old, stand about 5'7" tall, and, last time I checked (which was about 2 minutes ago), I weigh 275 pounds.
Holy shit.
I've struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember, which stretches back to being in grade school and being teased for being fat. 2nd graders can be so cruel. It only got worse as I got older. I don't remember when I hit 200 lbs. It was probably sometime Senior year of high school. I DO remember when I hit 250 for the first time. That was Senior year of college. My cousin, Brandon, had died in an accident, and I turned to food for some good TLC. TLC being Tons of Lingering Calories.
I used to teach Latin to middle schoolers at a private school. That job and the stress that I put on myself because of it landed me in the hospital for suicidal ideations. I quit the day after I got out of the hospital. Combine clinically diagnosed Major Depression with being unemployed for a few months, and TLC made a reappearance, and I grew to the weight I am now.
I eat too much, exercise hardly ever, and hate the way my body looks. Those three things need to change. This blog is where I'll document both my caloric intake and output, and my emotions during what is sure to be a rough, but rewarding journey. There might be posts with a little TMI, but I'll be sure to put major warnings at the beginning of any posts that might gross people out. But hey, this is my blog, and I get to write what I want, write? Haha. Right.
Tomorrow, I'm starting a diet, and joining the gym near where I work. Wish me persistence and patience!!!!
Good for you Shannon! What a wonderful thing to document. YOU CAN DO IT! Let me know if you need anything.
ReplyDeleteA few Gym tips because...I HATE going to the gym...too but realize I have too. What I found makes it better are:
1) allowing myself only to read certain things while I'm at the gym...for example I am only allowed to read Cosmo, People, OK, US and any other fluff maerial while I'm on the eliptical or treadmill
2) Classes...if your gym has those they are great too...aquarobics is my favorite :)
3) a nice long shower when its all over
4) Knowing exactly what you are going to eat when its over...a healthy yet great snack when its over is awesome too...I usually do fruit
shannon, we are in the same boat and its definitely a struggle and it can seem overwhelming at times but you just have to keep pushing through (I'm preaching to myself here as well)...I've been there and am still struggling with my weight...It sounds like you have atleast the most important info about cals in vs. cals out. i know a little something about nutrition and exercise so if i can help you out or encourage you please let me know. I believe you can do it and you have my number on those tough diet days!
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