Umm... Been over a year since I wrote in this thing. Wow.
Well, I still struggle with my weight. I think I might be addicted to eating out. I like food. I like not having to do dishes. I've been going to the gym somewhat regularly, mostly because I'm paying for a personal trainer and I don't want to waste my money. One of my colleagues put it very succinctly when she and I were complaining about not having any money and being overweight. She said, "You know the problem is because we essentially eat our money and shit it out, right?"
She's completely right. And I keep saying to myself, "this is the last time I'm eating out!" or "this is the last time I'm spending money on food I'm not buying to actually prepare and eat at home!" And yet I keep failing myself.
So it's time to get drastic.
And by drastic, I mean surgery.
Some time this fall, after Labor Day, I will undergo a sleeve gastrectomy. It is a form of bariatric surgery that will greatly reduce the size of my stomach, and remove the part of the stomach that researchers believe is responsible for secreting the "hunger hormone", whose scientific name I can't remember right now.
I'm not posting this to get an argument started about whether or not this is a good decision. I know it's the right decision for me, because TRUST ME, I've agonized over it, I've talked it over with the people who matter, I've prayed about it, I've researched it, I've done everything in my power to make sure that this DRASTIC LIFE CHANGE is what I want and need.
So I'm just looking for support. That's all anyone really wants, anyways, right?
I solemnly swear I will write in my blog at least once a week from here on out. It feels good to write something that doesn't have to be cited in APA format.
REALLY good.
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